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A good thing or a bad thing?


The chills,they ran down my spine. Yes, you’re a wonderful soul. I try, try so hard to be you,to be ignorant,but failure knocks at my door even before success is half way through. I wonder how you’re able to pretend so well,the douche that you are I’m amazed by your excellence at being a pretentious bitch. But you know what? You’re the weak one out here. I’ve heard getting away is easier than dealing with it. I’ve always known you but never known you. 
I look at you, you look away. I talk to you, you ignore me anyway. I walk to you and you walk away. I think about you and in my head forever you stay. Just one glimpse of you, just those 30 seconds when our eyes meet and all the promises I made to myself, I break. Oh, the feeling then, is ridiculously marvelous. 
But I’ve reached the edge of my patience . I can’t take anymore of this drama. I cannot wake up every morning telling myself that, today these efforts won’t go in vain. I was confused if I was giving up or moving on? I realized it was neither of the two. I cannot define what I am going through. This time I am telling you, that it’s gonna take ages for the wound to heal and will always leave a scar behind to remind me of the traumas you put me through. But I fear, for I know that you couldn’t care less to fix this mess. I fear I’m gonna have to be with you forever. You’ve hurt me this time. Very bad. I’m glad in a way because you don’t matter to me anymore,or at least I will be good at pretending that you don’t. 
There comes a time when you’ve neither given up nor are you hoping for any better, you face the situation as it comes. A point where life tells you that it has taught you enough lessons for the time being and all those lessons learned have now,to be implemented. A good thing or a bad thing? .. 

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I'm an ordinary girl with ordinary dreams to whom those small little things in life and love matter the most. I live everyday, learning what life wants to teach me. A lot of me you will like and even more you may dislike. Judge me by how much you know of me or get to know me a little more. I leave the option to you :)

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